去剪了个头发。留了半年了，原本想拿到 offer 或者某个类似重要意义的里程碑的时候再剪，但今天风特别大，在超市外面推手推车的时候吹的头发直翻起来，突然感觉坚持下去也没什么意义，到家之后就直接去了理发店。上次剪好像还是在匹兹堡熊猫超市对面的那家，只记得剪完之后坐松鼠山的公交车回北奥克兰，当时路上少见的大太阳，还挺刺眼。这次一进门，负责剪的亚洲大妈看到我就说你这样的见多了，都是 COVID 不怎么出门的那种，接着指着墙上一堆男明星问我想要哪一个，我心说这哪一个我也都要不起啊，随便指了个可能是小李子的照片，之后快刀斩乱麻，不到十分钟就给剪完了，出奇的快。因此出来之后又到处晃悠了会，去书店里买了本 Carl Sagan 的 COSMOS。之前读 Carl Sagan 的 Pale Blue Dot 的时候特别喜欢里面的话，甚至截图有他 narration 的科普视频做了明信片，寄给了其他人。现在想，可悲的不是最后明信片没寄到，而是我选了这么抽象的一张图，即使我重复这句话，似乎也没什么回应，而他本人这段话，也正是这张图蓝色小字的下句话，则更是无从谈起。
“Look again at that dot. That's here. That's home. That's us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every "superstar," every "supreme leader," every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived there-on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam.
― Carl Sagan, Pale Blue Dot: A Vision of the Human Future in Space